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Recovering means to appreciate…

Appreciate yourself and appreciate the others like yourself…

Some of you might know this, some of you might be surprised but at the moment, I’m recovering from a severe depression which, almost lasted a for year now.

Things are getting better now, today I’m taking care about myself a lot. Some things in my life have to change to not let this happen again, others are to be picked up again and will continue. I take care of myself and I give myself immaterial rewards and presents.  Within a few days from now, I’ll start to work again and I’m really looking forward to get back in my nine-to-five job where I will face some new and exiting challenges.

A depression, that sounds horrible you might think. You are right, it is not not funny; I had a difficult time, but if I’m honest to myself I have to say that not all things where negative. During my depression I’ve learned a lot about myself and also lost a lot of weight. Besides this, I’ve found very special person, just good friends, nothing more but so special to write about it today.

Sharing sadness, happiness and hope, helped to reduce the fears we faced in our life. The trust and openness in this friendship without further expectations, allowed to talk  about things I never felt comfortable to talk about before. For me this was a turning point in life, even when those discussions often where just a kind of confessions for me they where a mirror.  I’ve learned a lot about myself and the things happening around me. I also found the way back to God which, I ignored in my life. I have to recognize this also brings me hope, trust and stability I need.

This unique friendship is extremely valuable to me. Today it is the day, it is Valentine’s day which, seems to be only for lovers and couples that want to get married. This year for me it is just to thank for a unique friendship where we are there for each other, nothing more and nothing less.

Now let’s come back to photography, after all this website is about photography…

This week I picked up a parcel for this friend, in the parcel there was a jacket, I could not give it in person but I took this picture of the label behind the curtains of my temporary apartment. Of course I also made some pictures of the jacket, for this blog they are not that interesting I think.

Pictures can be nice or artistic, this one is different; For me me the picture is meaningful, it visualizes the question marks we do have about why we met each other, what purpose there is. From my point of view this “why question” is not important at all, more important is to take care about the special friendship and see “how” we deal with this special situation.

Today is not just a day for “lovers”, for me it is also is about appreciating special friendships as well.

I do wish all readers of my blog a wonderful Valentine’s day,


The power of the square format

In portraits it all is about the person and expression shown. Some portraits clearly benefit from the square format, they get more powerful.

By choosing the square format the features of the face get more attention and the character of the person becomes more relevant. This portrait has been made in a house entrance, the background almost is pure black and helps to put even more focus on the man shown.

More portraits can be found in the portraits section of the galleries section on this website.

Color: I start to like it!

In another post I explained why I started publishing color photos. Today I took one from the Ethiopia trip and let the colors play. The colors in the original RAW file where too poppy for my taste, I carefully reduced them and this is what could make out of it.

Portrait of a woman belonging to the Hammer Tribe in Omo Valley, Ethiopia.Portrait of a woman belonging to the Hammer Tribe in Omo Valley, Ethiopia.

For my taste this is the kind of color I am looking for in my photos. One of the visitors of this blog (Stefan) took his time to look closer to the photo and gave some valuable feedback.

The image slider on the right shows the original and new version (slider left). In the new photo the background has been blurred and color is a bit more desaturated.

I invite everybody to make critical comments to my posts, a bit more than beautiful, wonderful is highly appreciated!

What comes after the G.A.S.?

G.A.S. what the hell is that??? Well let me explain, it is the so-called Gear Acquisition Syndrome, a problem a lot of people who want to take (great) photos suffer from. Mostly it are men but, some women also might be affected. I had it as well; bought too much far too expensive stuff to take photo’s with. At some point it was enough, this point was reached when back in 2007, I planned a trip to Mali. During the preparations I learned that there’s a lot of dust in Mali. Too dangerous for all my “expensive equipment”. At the end of the day, I got a Panasonic FZ-50, my new tool survived sand and dust and I took my first portrait shown here.
Not bad for a start, I almost got healed. But then I bought a Canon 5D with L-Glass. Far too heavy and expensive and in 2015 I ended at Fujifilm X Pro: the end of my G.A.S. What comes after G.A.S.? First of all there is the widely unknown, P.B.A.S. (Photo Book Acquisition Syndrome). I am still suffering from this but this syndrome is more constructive, it is a source of inspiration. Maybe at some point I start to blog about all those books I have on my bookshelf. I currently suffer from the W.D.S. (Website Design Syndrome) and try to find an escape. For the previous website ( I spend far too much time on design of the site itself. Early 2018 I found my old website ( needed a successor, I decided to stay with WordPress as framework, got a nice theme and some promising plugins. The idea was to use everything without modification. This did not work out, I made a child theme to solve problems I saw, CSS to make things look consistent. It took me over 10 months of time to finalize this website. Far too much, to less time to work on the material I had from various trips. My advice? If you want to focus on images and present them, try something like SquareSpace. This will be much quicker als looks (almost) as good as your own design. And if you don´t follow my advice and want to know what I use then check the about section of this site where, at the end I explain which theme and plugins I used for this website. Can I help you?  To keep it short: No, might be able to see some symptoms but I’m not able to heal you. You have to find your own way.

Why color?

Till recently, I showed my work only as black and white. While processing the images sometimes I start to think about color. For me this was a difficult decision, it took me months to take the step to color. Finally I published two photos in Color on my old Photo-Vinc website.

On this website I now will bring more color. I am trying to find my style, not too much colors, decent slightly de-saturated.

Bellow some samples:

More colorful work in the portraits section here on this website.

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